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Saturday, February 16, 2008
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5:22 PM
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alamak xDD
i just found out who is the gurl ..
aiyoweii , bai le yi ge da wu lonqq .
LOL , ps orhhs , char !
anyways , just wann to jys to weichenqq in jio-inqq that gurl .
ahh , i very guaii derh ,
wont sae who is the her .
cos im also no supposed to know who is she marhh . =="
omq .
now whenever i hear the siren of the ambulance ,
i will pa pa derhhs .
reminds me of my ahqonqq .
he's in coma =(
ytd overheard my parent's conversation .
then heard they sayinqq what zhi wu ren .
tears beqqan rollinq down .
zhi wu ren .
a plant ?
my ahqonqq ?
no way ,
no way i can accept it .
i just wann my ahqonqq to get really really well soon .
i wan to see him .
and my cousin just smsed me that ,
sayinqq my ahqonqq has alot of tubes arnd him .
=(
PAIN .
PAIN .
PLUSS
PAIN ..
i really dont bear to let my ahqonqq suffer like this .
i've seen once ,
i duwan to see it again ,
esp in the ICU .
i really dun like larhhs .
budd what can i do ?
i can do nth budd to pray hard to let my ahqonqq live well .
i still wann my ahqonqq to eat the thinqqs i cook ,
once i've master them at home econs .
i still wann my ahqonqq to see my O Levels' result 4 yrs later .
i still wann to treat my ahqonqq to a vacation .
i still wan to let him see me qrowinqq up and become successful .
if there's a choice ,
i would rather be the one lyinqq on the hospital bedd .
i would rather be the one with alot of tubes attached to me .
i would rather be the one takinqq all these pains .
if i can , i would haf alr given my life in exchanqqe for my ahqonqq's .
if there's an operation that can save my ahgonqq ,
i would haf went .
i would haf do everythinqq for savinqq him .
im very angry .
think abt it ,
why did ahqonqq's condition qqet so serious ?
adults thought that we children dont know anythinqq happeninqq .
they thought we dont need to know and understand too .
bud they are wronqq .
children always get to know them very well , when the adults do not know that we children know it .
in this case , im aware of quite alot of thinqqs .
durinqq the last asthma attck ,
ahqonqq was alr very weak ,
budd there's still treatments for him and cures for him .
which means , just pay money ,
giv him treatments and thinqqs well ,
he will be able to lead a healthy life .
im not blaminqq anyone here .
cos i know im onii a teen .
im not the head of the family .
so take it that im just makinqq a comment or smth .
unfortunately , i saw no one doinqq that .
if i ask uu all ,
dont tell me uu all did it .
cos thru my own eyes ,
i didnt see efforts put in .
yes maybe abit ,
well , hirinqq a maid to do houseworks .
budd that wont improve ahqonq's condition right ?
maybe uu may think that im exaggeratinqq or smth ,
in my opinion , maybe uu all shld haf taken more intiative to take ahqonqq in seekinqq for treatments ?
yes , if i haf told uu all this , some of uu or shld i sae ALL of uu would haf given excuses such as ,
"im very busy at work ."
hello ? im sure uu all have heard of "takinqq leafs " right ?
dont tell me uu all lack of common sense . =="
well , MAYBE if i told them this ,
some will reply "my boss wont allow me !"
from my point of view ,
uu haven try , how would uu know ?
and i believe that "seekinqq a glimmer of hope for my dad" will be a VALID reason .
unless uur boss is damn stone-hearted or smth .
speakinqq of stone-hearted .
i just cant stand it .
MOM ,
i know ishldnt haf said all these ,
budd how can uu be so stone-hearted ?
i know he's not uur dad ,
budd he used to be quite good to uu right ?
so how can uu spit all thos thinqqs out ?
seriously and truthfully ,
im damn pissed off when uu said all those thinqqs .
uu are too stone-hearted and uu dont even know .
uu keep sayinqq that " people are qoinqq to die , this is a natural proccess , why is there to be sad abt ? "
yes, this is correct ,
budd my ahqonqq for 13years since i was born ,
i was sooo closed to him when im younqq ,
he took such qood care of us .
how'd uu expect me to smile at such circumstance?
impossible right ?
budd i wonder why the hell did uu still continue ,
when i've told uu to stop talkinqq abt it ,
and even said that uu are stone-hearted .
uu just keep blabberinqq all those thinqqs out ,without considerinqq other's feelinqs .
mom , i know im in the wronqq for speakinqq ill of uu .
budd i just cant stand the way uu beinqq stone-hearted .
and the reason uu gave me ,
isnt a reason , for me .
maybe it is foruu ,
cos i can understand , the pain uu lose uur parents .
this is my ahqonqq ,
its abt the same as my parents ,
just that we dont live tgt .
he is sufferinqq frm such serious disease , uu still ask me not to be sad ?
why ? i thought uu shld know whyy im sad ?
fine , maybe uu dont know .
nvm ...
lenqthy post i've had .
i shall stop wiritinqq , no mood to continue too .
ahqonqq , just get well soon ?
