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Monday, October 26, 2009 ,
8:35 PM


Updating again.

Went for SANA Course today, wasn't as boring as i expected. O:
But yeah, couldn't go Sentosa outing with qi & boon they all, very sad luhhhhh TT
Next time i want go out with them tgt agn!


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我不知道是什么事情让你宁愿跟别人说, 也不跟我们这群姐妹分享?
我更不知道为什么能够了解你的心事、分担你的烦恼的人, 都只有男生?
我也不知道我们近两年的友情, 竟然比不上你和他们半年不到的友谊?
因为遇见新的朋友所以可以把我们的友情忘光光, 所以跟我们离越来越远?
也之所以认为我们三个, 和你, 是不同频道、以不同步伐在行走的不同人?
我不了解为什么我们的在乎, 你可以视而不见, 当成理所当然.
我不了解无数次想挽回挂在悬崖边的友谊的我们, 在你眼里真的只是你生命力的过客,
只是你眼中的隐形人?
还是是你有事才登门的三宝殿, 得到帮助了就忘恩负义地撇开我们.
已经不是第一次, 第二次, 或第三次了.
还是把你当姐妹, 真的只是我们一厢情愿的想法?
也许我们要学着释怀学着像你对我们视而不见一样, 对你冷漠看待?
这种关系很累, 也很烦, 根本不是我所期盼的.
我已经告诉自己只要你开心就算了, 但是这已经超越我能接受的范围了.
现在的心情很复杂, 脑筋一片混乱.
我根本无法理智思考应该以怎样的方式对待你.
我知道你不会看到我打的这篇日志, 不过我还是想问你,
在你眼里的我们真的那么那么渺小?
我们的友谊你是不是从来没有重视过?
我受够了.
她们也受够了.


Sunday, October 25, 2009 ,
9:15 PM


Updating this dead blog.
-_-.

Arghhh. Back from My Adventure Training Camp from 23Oct until today, 25Oct.
Was an enjoyable camp cus met alot of nice ppl :D
Toturing cus of the untoleratable heat at Pulau Ubin & the stupid PT -_-"
Okay, basically from the jetty to the campsite, it was said to be 5km. Guess what?
We walked,or rather ran there -_-.
With our barang-barangs. Crazy one. Run & cheer & sing, madness.
Anws, gunna update on what i did thr.
(Sorry, no pics cus electronic devices were confiscated D:)

23rd Oct.

Okay, actually had school bazaar in the morning til 11.45am, all the cadets left a lil bit early,so arnd 11.30am gathered to get going to Pulau Ubin for ATC.
Took bus to the jetty at Changi thr, i think. On the way thr, ma'am kept teaching us NP cheers and songs.
Wahlao, cannot sleep in peace O:
Nvm, the voyage to Pulau Ubin on the jetty was fun can :D
LOL, and Nat lost her 'virgin' boat trip to Ubin.
On the way thr she was like, 'Virginity lost in process'. I was like LOLOL.

Anws, reached Ubin then, & that's whr the torment comes -_-.
Like I've said, ran abt 5km to the campsite, can die yknow.
Reached the campsite, schools in Area6 came ~
Splittd into grps & i was seperated with Nat TT. But hengheng still gt Ayaka, Jamie & Jiaying with me :D.
Then went to pitch the tents. Pitched for veryveryveryvery long -_-.

Dinner afterwards, was given ration pack, me & Ayaka cooked & ate tgt :D But before that, we saw spider webs & spiders in the mass tin & we were like ... Disgusted.
I went to wash luh, damn disgusted, the spiders stucked onto my fingers with the spiderweb O:
But due to this camp, sorta overcame my fear for bugs, LOL.
Okay, actually nth much on first day, did ice-breaking :D
Got to know alot of ppl ^^.
Eunice,
Phyllis,
Stethanie,
Audrey,
Hany,
Kailin,
Jamie,
Ayaka,
Jiaying & me are the girls in Grp3(our grp). See, 10 only. Very less O:.

As for guys.. I try to recall ah, cus got 16 x.x
Gerald,
Benedict,
Alex,
Chi Jao(Chin Chow LOL),
Yu Qi(KimChi/hardcore no. 2 LOL),
Jian Shen,
Wei Siang,
Ducknes(or smth de, i cnt rmb his name lahhh, but he is hardcore no. 1 LOL),
Sylvester,
Ryan(Lion LOL. I call de, cus at first i tot that his name was lion.),
Guan Wei,
Desmond{?} i not sure of his name,
Chi Jao's friend, i totally have no idea what his name is -_-,
Daryl, Bowen & Sinyuan were also in grp 3 O:.

Alright, forgot 2ppl's name :3.
But nevertheless still rmb most of them lah xD.
Anws, that day, lights were out at 11pm :D.

24th Oct.

Didn't slept well, keep wake up & slept constantly. -_-.
Gathered at 5.30. PT -________________-"
I ran 2rounds, cmi, fall out. I know lah, my stamina cmi x.x
Thn Jamie & Jiaying also fall out at later part of the PT. And we were like wah, 3 BP de K.O alrd, LOL.
But alot ppl fall out too. Eunice frm my grp even fainted.
Conclusion: First day's PT was quite tough.
Anws, had the pocari sweat thingy which provide mineral salts & nutrients, wahhh,
有够难喝的啦, 好像恶心版的Mountain Dew噢! ~.~
Nevertheless, i still drank a bottle x.x Gahh.
Okay, today was the most fun day during the camp, cus alot of activities were organized for us :D

Firstly,went for BSS, Basic Survival Skill.
Err.. A Sir was incharge of us, but i forgot his name.. x.x And Chee Seng Sir was also thr too.
Learnt quite alot lah, and also applied the camouflage cream which the soldiers will apply to camouflage thermselves in jungles or forests.
Because that day was a pretty hot day, so everyone's sweating, and thus,
from streaks of greens, tunred to green facial mask o:
Anws, learnt hornet drill & wildboar drill, damn funny lah can! LOL!
We also learnt how to build a shelter, referring to a tent, using 3ponchos & some provided materials like pegs, poles & ropes.
Our IC was very funny , LOL. Cus our tent didn't look stable nor safe, then he was like trying to prove to us theunstablility of our tent so he shook our tent damn hard.
And yeah, the tent proved him wrong as however hard or vigorous he shook, the tent didn;t collapse, and we all cheered. Hahas :D
But still, our tent wasn't that good lah :/

Next, we went for rock climbing & low rope elements. Splitted ourselves into 2 groups.
My grp went to low rope elements first ~
Very fun, LOL :D
But i fell down, and dropped my shoes & bruised my knee.
Wahlao, the guys down thr laughing when my shoe fly off, even the trainer also. T_T.
Nvm o:, anws the trainer was seriously very humourous. Kept on giving us nicknames -_-".
He called Chi Jao Chin Chow, well actually alot of ppl call him that becus we can't pronounce his name :/ Anw, he like very emo ahh. o_o

Then called the Ducknesh hardcore. LOLOL! Okay, it started off when Kimchi(Yu Qi) said 'hardcore lai le, hardcore lai le' when Ducknesh's gunna try the elements, and that he had to be his supported to prevent him from falling, and cus of his size.. Yknow, gravity pull stronger, so yep x: Had to use more strength to support him, that's why Kimchi always calls him hardcore, then everyone call him hardcore, LOL x:
Aft that i forgot why, Kimchi became hardcore no.2, hahs.

And then the trainer called me crazy laughter, cus i kept on laughing when doing the elements.
Eheh, but not my fault can, is the ppl not doing the elements keep making me laugh! >O
Anws, proceeded to the rock climbing.
I climbed halfway, hand shake leg shake, then the belayer let me down. LOL. x:
Went for a maze, but was closed alrd, cus the Sirs duwan to eat up our time for kayaking.

So yep, the next andthe last activity is kayaking :D
Wheeee, partner with Stethanie ^^v.
Funfun :D
But very tired also, had muscleaches all overrrrrrr -_-
ChienQin, Audrey & Ayaka sea sick x.x Gah, poor them.
Nth much to elaborate on, just got soake from head to toe.
Ohyeah, and my finger was squashed by the kayak -_-
Wahlao, pain lah, lucky only got bleeding, no fractures.

Okay, i shall skip the washup part & dinner part~
Campfireeee alrd~ Okay, didn't really enjoyed the campfire since was very tired alrdy.
Campfire halfway, got one sec3 pei cai sec guy came to sit down beside me, then he told me Bukit Panjang suck. And me & Jamie were like ....?
C'mon lah, we didn't even criticize him. Gahhh, nvm.
And to think that i thought that he was quite shuai altho i cant see his face fully. Oh gosh, i shldn't had even think abt it la. Madness -_-.
Anws went back and lights out at 11.45pm if im nt wrong.
Btw, got frog jump into our tent that day. LOLOL!

25th Oct.

Had PT, wasn't that torturing x: PT-I quite good, hehe.
Then had breakfast& did area cleaning.
Our grp's area cleaning quite slack laa. So went to help other grps aft that.
Stupid, me & jiaying were picking up litters from out tentage area.
And what the heck, i found a pair of smelly socks T_T.
Had to pick up with bare hands and throw, argh -_-
Then, exchanged contact numbers, pack up, go home . :D
Walked 5km back to jetty. This time is srsly walk, haha.

Wheeeeeee, slept abit on the bus ride to lotone, since sch's nt open, today :D
Bought alot of food, i miss them so much!!
Wahahah, had my fill, bathe, slept :D
AND I LOVE MY BED XDDDD!
7+ woke up, on com, eat dinner ^^.
And now, down here posting. Mwahaha.

Okay lah, very long post, i guess i shall end it here.
Til then, Earthlings! :D


Friday, October 9, 2009 ,
2:17 PM


Yooohoooo! :D Updating!
Yayness! Ying Xiang's recovered from her illness, hoho :D
精力充沛啦! ^^v .
Brrrrrrr, exam's starting again next Monday. T_T.
Literature & Homec paper. Sian.


Pondered about which combination do i really want to go, even though i thought i already had an idea in mind, physics+chem comb.
But thinking of it again, do i really just want to get into that combination for the sake of getting into it?
Do i really want to take physics just for the sake of taking it?

Maybe, idk.


Bio, as compared to physics, i realised i had a much deeper interest for it.
But i told myself, i cannot give up the opportunity of going into phy+chem stream if i can.
Idk idk idk idk idk .
I really dk what do i actually want to acheive for myself in life.
Dancer? I can't seemed to get the feeling of dancing back ever since i quitted dancing in my primary school days.

Doctor? I doubt so. Not bright enough i guess.

Translator? I wanted as an ambition, however, having a more thorough thought, i realised my passion for that wasn't up to what ought to be.


This is crap, i actually dk what i want.
And i did not find out any abilities for myself.
Ohno, total rubbish.
Whatever, i reckon i shloud just concentrate & score for my eoy first.

Til then .


Monday, October 5, 2009 ,
12:44 PM


Updating!

Fever. 3days MC from school.
Gunna miss 2 physics lessons. Dead meat.
I wonder how am i going to hit my targets for streaming.
加油, 滢湘.

Til then.

2down, 5 to go.
7days to Literature paper .



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