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SweetSour 14 .
Yeah! Councillor & NPCC .
Big Fan of Lollipop 棒棒堂 & Seto Koji ! ♥
承諾是用來遵守的 .
Monday, June 2, 2008
,
10:10 PM
♥♥♥
am i a toy that uu can vent uur anger with anytime ?
anywhere ?
anyhow ?
am i ?
the scoldings everyday is driving me mad .
the slappings everyday is driving me crazy .
sometimes i just feel like going to the 1ooth floor & jump down .
maybe not coming to earth was a better choice ?
the insults from uu are uncountable alr .
uu may continue on if uu like .
im alr used to all these insults anyways .
i told uu ,
uu dont trust me ?
well ,
in fact ,
uu dont trust everything i've done .
yah , yah ,
uu said i was the one bullying uu ,
didnt uu think of how uu slapped ,
scolded ,
insulted me everyday ?
who is the one bullying now ?
yah yah ,
its all my fault for coming onto this earth ,
why not take a knife & stab me ?
why not hold a gun & shoot me ?
why not carry me to the top of the mount everest ,
THEN PUSH ME DOWN THE CLIFF FROM THERE ?
then i'll be dead .
arent uu happy ?
all uu did was scold scold & scold ,
then slap slap & slap .
uu said i didnt thought of how uu felt ,
did uu spare a thought for me then ?
why do uu expect me to do everything for uu ,
when i dont even get anything much from uu .
yah , uu may say uu gimme money ,
raised me up for 13yrs ,
provided me with education .
i knew these ,
im grateful .
budd i just dont understand ,
why dont uu know how i feel ,
no matter how many times i told uu ?
i dont understand ,
why do uu wanna gif birth to me in the first place ,
when uu tell me that i wasnt supposed to be living on earth now ?
when uu tell me i can die the sooner , the better ?
when uu tell me i was good-for-nth ,
when uu tell me i might as well go be a prositude .
why did uu tell me these all ,
after uu gave birth to me ?
i did the chores almost everyday without fail ,
uu still complained .
i did my hwk yah ,
uu still accused me of finding an excuse in order to use com .
i read finish a storybk & i even summarise it to uu khays ?
i even translated frm eng to chi khays ?
uu still said i was lying .
what do uu think i can do ?
yoohoo ,
im imperfect .
and human beings need time to change .
so how do uu expect me to change my bad points in a days' time ?
IM A HUMAN .
NOT A MACHINE THAT UU CAN CHNG ITS SETTINGS ANYTIME ?
all uu know was money .
uu said i spent alot of money .
uu said i wasted uur money .
uu counted each & every single cents with me .
& uu even calculated them out .
uu demanded me to return when im earning my own's money .
fine , i will .
budd after i said that ,
uu doubted me again .
everytime ..
uu did this .
uu doubted if i can lead a life in the future .
uu doubted how would i get my money ,
in what source .
then uu said abt my exam results .
uu said ,
i could jy ,
nvm if i get these kind of results now .
uu said nvm ..
budd now,
uur saying ,
the directly opposite .
uu cared too much abt my grades ,
that uur telling me abt it every single day .
uu think i loved tat kind of grades ?
uu think i loved it ?
i promised ahgong ,
i would excel in my studies .
& thats his last wish .
I DO NOT WANT TO DISAPPOINT AHGONG .
so i told uu i will work hard .
& there uu are ,
telling me ,
i wont make it .
ppl say ,
they might runaway frm home alr ,
budd i wont ,
dont worry .
I'LL STAY ,
AND PROVE UU WRONG .
(:
1o YRS LTR ,
WATCH OUT FOR ME .
IM GUNNA CHANGE COMPLETELY .
& I PROMISE ,
I WILL .
